I'm just me. Not too ordinary, not too special either. I'm just a woman who loves the colour orange a lot. I'm weird sometimes, but everyone is once in awhile right.

* A life with no worries * My own ride * A PhD in Child clinical psychology * Travel around the world (for real!) * You, the boy with the sweetest smile, yes you

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Sweet friends who came over at midnight, wanting me to jump into the swimming pool in the freezing weather. Love them anyhow.. Thank you for the bracelet! =D

Super duper sweet friends who bought me my favourite anthurium and lied to me while waiting in the lobby. Willing to miss their class. Awwww.... *hugs and kisses*


The beautiful ANTHURIUM!

One birthday wish from a special someone that will make me the happiest girl in the world never came...

Will it come next year?

Hope... The one thing that keep us living in the world.

I'm STILL hoping.....

[Love me for A SECOND and I'll make it last A LIFETIME]

So, my journey towards adulthood have ended. I've reached a place called the big 2-0. I guess this is where I'll start a new life as an adult. But then again, I'm reluctant to leave that youth part of me behind. I've decided I'll carry it along with me and whenever I need it, I'll just have to pull it out. =D It's a win-win situation!!

Hmm, what am I feeling right now? Bliss cause I have friends who lied to me in order to surprise me (Fiona, Amanda, Fenella, Hendy, Rivano). I'm glad that I've lived 20 years in this world. Though there are some things I may not be too happy about and things that I wish I had done differently. But overall, I'm really satisfied with the beautiful family I have, the friends who will stood by me no matter what, accept me for who I am. Just one thing missing though. I haven't yet experienced the feeling of loving someone wholeheartedly, the feeling of finding soulmate, the feeling of just PURE LOVE. That's the one thing I've yet to experience, the one thing that I desire. I guess God has His own plan for me and I'll just leave it all to Him.

Thanks all for the wishes =D

I don't learn from all my mistakes, only some.


Because some mistakes are WORTH MAKING.

He is the definition of perfection.
You are my definition of perfection.

Can be admired, cannot be touched.
Can be desired, cannot be owned.


Every single time you leave, you left me confused and disoriented..



When you're close I don't breathe
I can't find the words to speak

Gosh!! It has come to my realisation that I have been sooo absorbed in my own world that I forgot everything and everyone around me!

I hate myself!! I can't believe I forgot my Dad's birthday!! MY BELOVED FATHER!! Geez!!!! So pissed at myself. Sorry daddy!! >.<


HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! LOVE YOU ALWAYS!

xoxo,
Your lovely but forgetful and self-obsessed daughter

I've started on something, but today I slipped. I'm sorry.. I apologize to myself. Sometimes I condemn ME for my lack of discipline, for my lack of determination, for my lack of will power! Good Lord please make this easier on me. Please help me get through this.. *sigh*

*Slap myself really hard across the cheek*
Wake up Mer and don't ever slip again. The guilt is unbearable....

MeR is a good girl today and stayed at home the whole day. And and and! She make fish finger and breast chipees sushi!! It's delicious.. yummy. No, she didn't finish it all herself. I'm bored to tears today. I think I have to get used to staying at home since I'm trying to save up some cash. Hmmm... I'll find things to do then. Maybe do some baking. Wooo Woooo!! I'm excited for the next few weekends staying home =))

So today I went shopping alone and it was fun. I like having some time for just ME and no one else. Walking around aimlessly, not having to hurry because no one is waiting for you. It gives me time to think.

I don't get people who think that those who eat alone, shop alone are pathetic. I know that "No man is an island" but still, you don't need you friend 24/7. Or maybe, I'm stepping into adulthood which makes me realise that being alone is ok...

Things are looking up and I'm glad =)



*Life is a spinning wheel. You can't expect to be on top forever*

I have been having a really bad week. But yes it will get better. I believe it will and when I believe, it will happen. =)

Bad Day- Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces every time
And I don't need no carryin' on

Because you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day