I'm just me. Not too ordinary, not too special either. I'm just a woman who loves the colour orange a lot. I'm weird sometimes, but everyone is once in awhile right.

* A life with no worries * My own ride * A PhD in Child clinical psychology * Travel around the world (for real!) * You, the boy with the sweetest smile, yes you

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As some of you may already know, I love to walk in the cold and crisp weather, listening to music. It gives me time to think and to just take in the beauty the world has to offer.

You live only once, why would you want to fill your life with just work or study? I'm not saying that those things are not necessary but they don't have to take up every single space in your life. How many of you have actually stopped and just breathe in the fresh air in the morning while walking to work or school? How many of you actually take in the surrounding? I bet not many. It's really sad..

The world offers so many beautiful sceneries, and living things and yet, the people who live in it don't even know how to appreciate them, destroying them with pollution and yadda yadda yadda..

Anyhoot, time flies yeah? Just months ago I was booking a flight to go back home and in 6 days time I'll be in my second home (Singapore)!! In 12 days, I'll be off to Bali!! You guys better enjoy the fair me right now cause when I'm back from Bali, I'm gonna be black y'all! Muahahaha. I love tan.


P.S: Do take a moment and really just inhale or whatever you do to take in the beauty of the world. Do try, it's worth that one minute you spend. =) Love you world!

Looking at the title, you may think "Oh she's going to be writing about fashion today" You're 50% right. I'm going to be writing about fashion, but MY own fashion. Sorry to disappoint you. HAHA. Hey, what do you expect, it is MY blog.

About a month or so ago, something (shall not mention who or what) enlightened me. I've come to realise that I cannot be forever the T-shirt and jeans girl! All this time, I've been so comfortable in my T-shirt and jeans and casual jacket. I realise I have to care more about how I look. So, I started buying new clothes and dressing up. Even though there is no special occasion. And the thing is, I feel good about myself! I feel more confident knowing that I look good not just so-so.

So, I've embarked on a project of revamping the content of my wardrobe. Can a sugar daddy please kindly sponsor me? HAHAHAHA. Just kidding... I'm saving up. I've already spent a humongous amount of money (shall not mention how much !!!?!!!?!!) to buy new clothes and shoes. Still have a loooonngg way to go.. *sigh* But I'm determined! So next time I buy clothes, no more ugly T-shirt. Someone please be very very generous and send me lots and lots and lots of money pleaseeeee...!

P.S: Thank you pepi for being my personal stylist. You are the BEST!!! Can't wait to go Bali!! xoxo, gossip girl. (errr.....?)

Get home, on the laptop, do whatever I need to do, sit in front of the laptop, facebook, blogs, msn.

That's basically my routine for every single day (well, almost). But come to think of it, I was surprised at how much time was spent in front of the computer! I still remember those days when I know nothing about the evil thing called "INTERNET". I remember how, as a family, we used to just watch TV together, have dinner together and all. But at the present, we eat dinner in front of our own probably 15" screen. Where are all the quality times people??? Where are all the bonding time?? I wouldn't want my kids to grow up not having the warmth of a family gathering.

And then I come to thinking, what if there's no internet or computer? Like if they were to disappear at this moment, will I be able to survive? *ponder*

My answer is: YES. I can survive. It has been proven. Whenever I go back to my home country (Indonesia), the internet speed is soo slooowww it can be said that I don't have internet. And because of that factor, I don't like going online when not necessary. I survive! I have my dogs to play with, TV to watch and friends to go out with.

But if I don't have any friends or family members or any human being I can talk to, I'll DIE!!

That's why I agree that "HUMAN IS A SOCIAL BEING"

Sorry for being away for too long, my non-existent readers! Have been really busy with exams. But fret not, it's all over now.

I have quite a few things in my mind that I actually want to blog about during the exam period. Howeveeer, due to the time constraint (?!??!), I mean because of all the studying, I can't really blog it out. And sadly, now, some of those ideas are gone!!!

Anyways, one of the things I remember is the topic on "HAPPINESS"

The first step towards achieving happiness is:

BE CONTENT WITH WHO YOU ARE

I find this true. You have to learn to accept you as YOU (confused yet?). The point is, no matter how you look like, no matter what your character is, no matter how imperfect you are, ACCEPT IT! Accept every single bit of you! Hey, nobody's perfect right?? And I'm nobody (nyah nyah nyah). Ok back to the point. I know it's easier said than done, but you can try. A step at a time. I know I haven't been exactly practicing what I preach. I still find all the things I'm unhappy with about myself (i.e. my tummy, my thigh, my hips, my nose, my eyes) Oh maann I can go on and on and on and on... I'm learning, sloooowwwly, but learning.

Oh gosh, my brain is so tired at 1.52 AM. I can't think of anything else to say. Geez... Alcohol is no good for the brain. Nooo goood.. Whee~~ I only had a quarter bottle of Vodka Cruizer for Pete's sake!! Now I'm arguing with myself. Fine, I better sleep now.. Me need sleep, brain need sleep, good night world!

P.S.: I take more than an hour to write this entry??!! My brain must be really f* up!

I got this from a friend's blog and he got it from the movie "Evan Almighty"

A picture is worth a thousand words. 3 picutres=3000 words.

I guess it's true how people say you want the things you can't get.

Just think about something you want so badly but you know that you can never get your hands on him.. thing, I mean that thing. The desire to own it is overwhelming. Sometimes it's bigger than yourself.

Ok I'm rambling..

The point is, why is it that we want those things or even those people that we know we can never own? Is it because there is no such thing as IMPOSSIBLE? Is it really true that NOTHING is impossible??


On a side note, I really need to be more positive about myself. I really need to boost my confidence and I really really need to make myself believe that I deserved to be loved, that THAT person will grow to love me, that it is not impossible for all that to happen.

*sigh*

[It's not love, it's not like, it's not infatuation. It is only admiration. It is only the joy of wanting but never owning. You were just a trophy]