I'm just me. Not too ordinary, not too special either. I'm just a woman who loves the colour orange a lot. I'm weird sometimes, but everyone is once in awhile right.

* A life with no worries * My own ride * A PhD in Child clinical psychology * Travel around the world (for real!) * You, the boy with the sweetest smile, yes you

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I want to get this one. The price is pretty reasonable and it's new model. I'd love to get it in the rose colour or the orange one. Hahaha. I HOPE... *cross finger*

I'm a new soul
I came to this strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout how to give and take
But since I came here, felt the joy and the fear
Finding myself making every possible mistake

See I'm a young soul in this very strange world
Hoping I could learn a bit bout what is true and fake
But why all this hate? try to communicate
Finding trust and love is not always easy to make

This is a happy end
Cause you don't understand
Everything you have done
Why's everything so wrong

This is a happy end
Come and give me your hand
I'll take you far away

I just realise that I am a gadget freak!!! Goodness, I just got a new phone a couple of months back and right now I'm already eyeing another one! But I've always wanted a sidekick/hiptop since forever!! It's just that they are not out in other countries. Here are some of the things I want:

- Canon 450D
- Macbook Pro
- Sidekick/hiptop
- Blackberry

But right now Canon 450D is my priority!
Hoping that I can get my canon during my june holiday. Hopefully it'll be out by then.. *sigh* Already asked my parents though, and they allowed me to buy but with my own money!! I don't mind *grin*. Yeay yeay yeay!

Even before I knew it, my heart had stopped liking you. It's been awhile now and I feel liberated (exaggerating, I know)

I still don't like you though (not him)

I started feeling pissed for some reason...

You can stop acting all nice in front of me, pretending to care how my life is going. And for Christ's sake, please stop bragging that you know more things about him than I do. I already know that, you don't have to tell me. And if I want to know all those things about him, I can ask him myself.
Just letting you know girl, not everyone loves you. Get that in your thick skull.

And really, when I say stop acting all nice and caring, I really do mean STOP! Geez...


Phew, feels good to let it out of my system...

And the rain is here, the smell and sound of it calms me down..

I really hope YOU get to read this...


I'm sorry that you have to be the one,
I'm sorry for disturbing you with stupid meaningless messages,
I'm sorry you feel bothered,
I'm sorry if I ever make you feel uncomfortable,
I'm sorry for everything,
Except one thing, I'm never sorry that I fall in love with you because it's the most beautiful thing I have ever felt.

But now it's time....

Goodbye my lover, goodbye my friend.

Everyone keeps telling me that I have to let you go, I have to move on. But I have been a naughty friend who doesn't listen.

And now I wonder.. Is it time I heed their advice? Will I be able to ever let you go? Will I be able to forget you completely?

Whatever it is, you have already taken a part of me away and I will never feel whole again..

It has been a few months now and I still like you. I've thought about giving you up for good. But it's just something that I can't bring myself to do. Because the feeling that I get when I think of you is indescribable. And I would take my heart out and present it to you without thinking twice.



This, is for you....

I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see ,what love means.

It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it go
Its something so beautiful
Flowin down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I'd be

Though I tried before to tell him
All the feelings I have for him in my heart
Everytime that I come near him
I just loose my nerve as I've done from the start

Coz every little thing he does is magic
Every thing he does just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for him goes on

Do I have to tell the story
Of the thousand rainy days since we first met
It's a big enough umbrella
But it's always me who ends up getting wet

(Repeat Chorus)

I resolve to call him up
A thousand times a day
And ask him if he'll marry me
In some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reached the phone
Long before my tongue has stripped me
Must I always be alone

Every little thing
Every little thing he does
Every little thing he does is magic, magic, magic

I would give you all that I am, for all that you are.

"Love me for a second and I'll make it last a lifetime"

Not a thousand love songs can express what I feel for you.

From the minute that you got my attention
I was taken and I have to mention
I was trying not to let it show
But I knew that I wasn't gonna let you go
From the way that you came right to me
Looking all hot with the style that threw me
No one would've ever known it
You would be the one who take this heart and hold it

You got that extraordinary way
Got to be next to ya every single day
You do something that I just can't explain
Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me

Boy, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Do you know it
Boy, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

You can say anything you want to
No stress 'cause I understand you
We got a vibe you can't define
Want everyone know that boy is mine
We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me
You take me there at times
I feel I lose control
Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding

Please know this
I'll always be right here
And you don't have to look
Nowhere else babe
Don't think for a minute
This love will change
Oh you should know that

Boy, I love you so
Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
Yeah
Can you feel it
Boy, I love you so
Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go
I just want you to know

I look around and all I see is you. Your face is in my every view. Sweet memories shared. kept and locked away deep inside the heart. Never forgotten, always remembered.



<3,
MeR

This is gooodd...

"My heart... It feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."


With love,
MeR

One single message and you totally make my day, and that's what I love about you =)

Gimme a reason
Why I'm feeling so blue
Everytime I close my eyes, all I see is you
Gimme a reason
Why I can't feel my heart
Everytime you leave my side, I just fall apart

And when you're fast asleep, I wonder where you go
Can you tell me, I wanna know

Because I miss you
And this is all I wanna say
I guess I miss you, beautiful
These three words have said it all
You know I miss you
I think about you when you're gone
I guess I miss you, nothing's wrong
I don't need to carry on

Gimme a reason
Why I can't concentrate
The world is turning upside down
Spinning round and round
Gimme a reason
Why I now understand
The beauty and simplicity of everything surrounding me

You got a way of spreading magic everywhere
Anywhere I go, I know you're always there
It sounds ridiculous, but when you leave a room
There's a part of me that just wants to follow you too

It's such a hard life in most of the time
I'm just surviving
That's why I want you to know
In the world where sincerity has lost its meaning
You fill my world with so much hope

And I miss you
This is all I wanna say
I guess I miss you, beautiful
These three words have said it all
You know I miss you
I think about you when you're gone
I guess I miss you, nothing's wrong
I don't need to carry on


You know I miss you
And this is all I wanna do
I know it doesn't sound too cool
But maybe I'm in love with you

I just miss you
Yeah, it's true
I miss you, baby
And when you're walking out that door
I know I miss you
You make me wanna ask for more
I just miss you
Yeah, it's true
I miss you, baby

I am missing you but I don't want this feeling to stop.
You're driving me crazy but I don't really mind.
You're all that I think about but I don't care cause I love thinking about you.

with love,
MeR

OMJ! It's freaking hot over here. Even hoter than singapore or Indo. The heat here is crazy. You really just want to stay at home and on the aircon and chill. I'm drinking lots of water to keep me from dehydration. I think I'm having water retention now.

Oh!! Anyways, I went to Moomba festival the other night and I watched the fireworks. Some people may think "what's the deal with fireworks?" I used to think that way to and actually still do now. I don't know why people runs out of the room to the balcony whenever there's a firework. It's just sparks in the sky. But the fireworks at Moomba was different. I was actually awed (yeah shoot me now). It was beautifully synchronized, different than all the other fireworks I have ever witnessed. All I could do was to admire and take in the beauty... Speechless....


P.S.: You're still on my mind and I'm still missing you. =)

Pardon me for my absence, I have been busy. (*tsk* yeah right)

Fine! I have a really good excuse alright?! I don't have internet! And now finally I do!!!!!!!!! WHEEE!!! I'm back on earth people! Feel like I've been living in planet mars. Oh wait, I think their technology is more advance than ours right. Oh wells, that's so unecessary.

Let's see, what have been going on in my life ever since I was abducted by aliens...
Thinking of you, thinking about you, missing you, oh and one more thing, trying to get you out of my mind. How cool is that. Geez, I guess the aliens have given something to rack my brain.

Life has been, great except for the fact that you are not around. I have been enjoying my uni life so far. Social life has not been to bad either. It seems like distance is unable to erase you from my brain and this red beating thing called "the heart".


[You're like a fallen star, an angel that has been sent to me to make my night turn into day, make my lemon into lemonade, make bitterness into sweetness]

*I like your every bit from head to toe. I like your smile, your laughter, the way you frown at a joke*