THE photographer

I'm just me. Not too ordinary, not too special either. I'm just a woman who loves the colour orange a lot. I'm weird sometimes, but everyone is once in awhile right.


Desires

* A life with no worries * My own ride * A PhD in Child clinical psychology * Travel around the world (for real!) * You, the boy with the sweetest smile, yes you

A Thousand Words


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Moving On

Sheila
Nad
Devina
Gigi
Herman
Elvira


Rolls of Film

February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008


Credits

designer DancingSheep
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Lesson learnt
Tuesday, April 29, 2008 @ 9:38 PM

I got my keys back. And it cost me $100. Though lesser than what it's suppose to cost me. I hope the money really goes to the lift company and not the building manager's own pocket. *sigh* From this day on, I'll hold the keys really really tight...



NOOO!!!
Friday, April 25, 2008 @ 12:00 AM

I stupidly dropped my keys in the lift gap. All because of that overly hyper dog! And it's going to cost me $290 to get back the keys! Like HELLOO!!!!!

My friend was able to get her tram card for free though, so I hope I can get my keys for free too. *sigh*



Stuffs
Tuesday, April 22, 2008 @ 11:15 PM

I think about all the things that had been said. Sometimes I wish that I have said things differently, I have acted differently. The point is, I re-think what had just happened. And that's what happen with you. You make me feel stupid for saying the things I say. You make me re-think situations just because I want to impress you. These are all the things YOU do to me...



Secrets
Sunday, April 20, 2008 @ 1:51 PM

And I like to keep you a secret =)



Strange Confession
Thursday, April 17, 2008 @ 8:38 PM

I know this is going to sound real strange coming from me. But I just want to tell the world that......

I'm actually very excited about studying for exam like I want to start right now!!!



Stress melanda
Wednesday, April 16, 2008 @ 11:28 PM

Meriana will be away on holiday for a month. I WISH!

*sigh* 1 more week and all assignments over!!!

Oh sorry, this is super random post.



Sunday, April 13, 2008 @ 12:30 PM

This, totally blew me away...


The Interview with God



TRUTH
Saturday, April 12, 2008 @ 2:43 PM

No matter how hurtful, no matter how real. You can't run away from truth forever. You have to accept it, acknowledge it and get over it..

Take care to all who have been hurt by truth..



Random-ness
Friday, April 11, 2008 @ 7:49 PM

And then you get comfortable with someone. Too comfortable in fact. You stop thinking before you speak. You stop holding back words. And after it all spills out, you think "damn"! Then you regret, but all the regret you feel can never take back all the words said.

This is what words can do to you. Fill you up with lots of regrets...



And then.....
Thursday, April 10, 2008 @ 6:59 PM

Feelings came back to me like waves.

Hello, nice talking with you. Goodbye. =)



"It's Just the Way We Are"
Sunday, April 6, 2008 @ 10:32 PM

We hold on to things the tightest,

when we are forced to let them go-

We always want things a certain way,

when we know they can't be so.

Dreams always last the longest,

when they are the furthest from our reach-

And the lessons we can learn the most from,

are often the very ones we teach.

The grass is always the greenest,

when it lies on the other side-

And the truths we preach to others, are often those we can't abide.

We hold fast to the things in a storm,

which are most likely to blow away-

And yet we neglect to wear sunscreen,

on a bright and sunny day.

We spend our time trying to see things,

when perspective is one thing we lack-

And we never appreciate what we've got,

until we can't get it back.

We expect the whole world to give us a break,

and yet ironically we'll find-

That when others come asking the same of us,

we tell them they're out of their mind.

We tell everyone what's wrong with this world,

and we do nothing to make it right-

We complain about families falling apart,

and yet do nothing to keep them tight.

We preach about loving our neighbors,

and we teach children right from wrong-

But we never set good examples for them,

when real chances come along.

We complain about not having enough time in our lives,

to do what we must do-

Yet if we were given more hours in the day,

we'd use up all that, too.

We desire to be close to all those we love,

yet all too often look on from afar-

And when it comes to the truth do we want to change,

or remain forever as we are?




"Paintbrush"
@ 10:30 PM

Paintbrush
I keep my paintbrush with me
Wherever i may go,
Incase I need to cover up
So the real me doesn't show.

I'm so afraid to show you me,
Afraid of what you'll do-that
You might laugh or say mean things
I'm afraid I might lose you.

I'd like to remove all my paintcoats
To show you the real,true me,
But I want you to try and understand,
I need you to accept what you see.

So if you'll be patient and close your eyes,
I'll strip of my coats real slow.
Please understand how much it hurts
To let the real me show.

Now my coats are all stripped off.
I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still love me with all that you see
You are my friend pure as gold.

I need to save my paintbrush though,
And hold it in my hand,
I want to keep it handy
Incase somebody doesn't understand.

So please protect me, my dear friend
And thanks for loving me true,
But please let me keep my paintbrush with me
Until I love me, too.



"When We Risk It All"
@ 10:15 PM

A beautiful poem taken from Erisca's blog

Written perfectly by Kristy Glassen

We can't blame others when love dwindles away-
For we knew from the start it never promised to stay.

It's just one of those things where the stakes are high-
And sometimes it's forever, and sometimes it's good-bye.

When you love the right way, you will never lose-
No matter what path life may force you to choose.

You may end up with tears or a broken heart-
but you knew what you signed up for from the start.

You can only give what you've got to give-
And if that's not enough, then you must continue to live.

Life will go on and broken hearts will heal-
You must continue on your quest, for that's the deal.

Throw your heart into life and never stall-
for the greatest risk is to risk nothing at all.

You see, love is the only thing that we know-
That can be divided and divided but continue to grow.

And life isn't long enough to lock away our heart-
Just because life may have forced two people apart.

We will continue to love and continue to lose-
We will continue to pick and continue to choose.

And then one day we will just risk it all-
Take the chains off our hearts and dismantle the wall.

The last time we love will be forever-
And never again will our hearts be forced to sever.

We'll never have doubts that it'll go away-
Because this time, it'll be here to stay.

But until then we must endure all the pain-
For we only see sunshine if we can wait through the rain.



Journey to the big "2-0"
Thursday, April 3, 2008 @ 12:00 AM

It just dawned upon me that I'm turning 20 soon and I mean real soon. 56 days to be exact. And not like most people, they get panic that they're turning so old, afraid of getting wrinkles and all.

I'm pretty excited about turning 20. Come one, learn to embrace aging. It's a natural thing.

The reason for me being all excited is because I feel that something is going to happen this year. I felt it when the new year begins. I know some of you will say that it is bullshit, but hey, I know what my instinct is telling me alright. 99% of the time, they are accurate.

I ponder about all the things that have been happening to me for almost 20 years now. I think about all the lessons and knowledge I have acquired, be it through experience or teaching. I reminisce about the happy moments, sad moments and all the uncertainties. I wonder about all the people that I have met so far in my life and the many more people who I am going to get to know and hopefully a special person that I'll spend the rest of my life with. I thank The Greater Power Up There who have laid my life in front of me, who have given me a beautiful family with parents to die for, friends who stood by me through everything, friends whom I fought with but who forgive me for my mistake.

Alrighty, I'll stop here before it sounds like my dying letter or something.

Anyways, so, on my birthday I'm going to write a special post.. I shan't reveal it yet. It shall remain a secret =) But yeah, do look forward to it.